A little more..

A year older!

2012-02-15T09:33:00.001+08:00

Tralalala...I am now having the digit 2 no more 1. It was a great Valentine's day yesterday..spent it with Sydney. Got to do some shopping in Midvalley and then cooked our dinner (cauliflower soup and butter dory fish). We finished the night with Chatime together with her mum and friend John. It was awesome really :).

The best pre-birthday day EVER :3

Had a chat with her and quart of a movie till like 3 am before we turned in.

Just woke at 9 just now. It was a good 6 hours sleep...teeheee..

Plans for today?
prolly bake then lunch date with Sydney and friends..after which I'm going home at 5.30pm later..

More updates later>>

Breathe!

2012-02-14T10:01:00.002+08:00

Woke up 4.30 am due to excitement and perhaps hunger.XD

Really, I told myself not to think too much and I went and did the exact opposite! I'm realising that it isn't what I think it was so I need to stop it now. Whether it is real or not that's none of my concern till it becomes real.

That's what you get when you run away with your fancies. Always happens to me. I wish there was a stop button somewhere. Someday, I'm going to find it :)

well, well, you...

2012-02-13T16:42:00.002+08:00

You make my dreams by Halls and Oakes...

Valentine

2012-02-12T23:37:00.003+08:00

and even if the sun refuse to shine
even if romance ran out of rhyme
you would still have my heart
until the end of time.

you're all I need my love
my valentine.

prolly I am getting into the mood huh? :) It's the time of the year. Actually, love should be all around and not only expressed on just one day.

I prolly just wanna feel something special, ya know.

BTW, I'm turning 20 like in 3 days! :D isn't that just awesome? teehee...

Pondering thought

2012-02-12T23:31:00.001+08:00

I want a new phone. heck, I want a touch screen phone! gosh.

I was thinking that with a smart phone, I can be on whatsapp and start IM-ing people at minimal costs. That would probably be a plus side with friends and get closer kinda stuff.

then I was wondering..
would it help me from being socially awkward at times? I probably need to learn how to deal with people through face-to-face contact. That meant meeting people everyday (at least someone a day) and have fun.

I think I may have found the perfect kind of part-time job. Meeting people. Actually thinking of it, that's a real general 'kind' to start with. I wonder where can I find one. God help me find one.

like I said...

2012-02-12T21:58:00.001+08:00

it's a scarcity of hope...looks pretty bleak now..teehee..

means the best is yet to come :)♥

Valentine Mood

2012-02-12T21:07:00.000+08:00

It's a time to allow the scarcity of hope that may come true.

Here I am, like a kid wondering if it was true../

It's the 12th!

2012-02-12T00:31:00.000+08:00

haha so random my title.

I've just finished the post-camp video for tomorrow's service and I'm happy I got it done before 1 am! I'm such a last minute freak and not to mention, I'm OCD (perfectionista). That's not a very nice combo as it tends to overstress me.

Now to clean my owh so messy room and then hit the lights baby!

Let the force be with you

2012-02-11T13:52:00.003+08:00

Loads of things I thought I could get done. It's NOT done yet!! oh no baby. deadline is in 9 minutes D: OMG

the finer things in life...

2012-02-09T09:22:00.000+08:00

It is time I fine tune the music in my head.

Get in sync with God's frequency

It's self-love that I have never had.

I need to workout.

Christlike Honour

2012-02-06T22:29:00.000+08:00

Christ-like honour -->
Show proper respect to everyone:
1. Love the brotherhood of believers
2. Fear God
3. Honour the king
1 Peter 2:17

Honour our father and mother... phil 6:2
interestingly, the phil verse comes with a promise. God promises a long and abundant life if we keep this commandment. The promises of God is the evidence of His abundant grace that He graciously pours out into our buckets. overflowing.

I have a confession. Before that, let me share Romans 12:10-11

Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honour one another above yourselves.

from ODJ

Dear God...

2012-02-06T21:52:00.000+08:00

Tonight I realised, like a slap in the face, that I had been selfish...

everything else is worthless.

Indeed, today begins a little more self~~ish~~less.

Living for Christ.

If fear knocks...

2012-02-06T21:35:00.000+08:00

You are made alive by Christ...given a spirit of power not of fear...so when fear knocks on your door, answer with faith!

~~Fear of rejection~~
~~Fear of loneliness~~
~~I'm worthless~~
~~I'm Not good enough~~
~~I'm not pretty enough~~

FAITH is knowing that God has got me by the hand and is leading me through...
He gives me nothing that I cannot handle. amen..

A familiar tune?

2012-02-03T15:48:00.000+08:00

It does skip but it doesn't beat for you no more. I think it never has so whatever you did, it's official a pigment of my imagination. Thanks for the memories :)

...wait what memories?

my point.

The hopeful sigh :)

2012-02-03T14:20:00.000+08:00

I have 5 more months to find me a scholarship. I do really hope to get one. It's so expensive nowadays to study and not to mention, I prefer the syllabus at the privates.

Well, life is full of risks to take. It might make you fall to learn and push to give confidence. At the end of the day, we'd find ourselves asking "What if...?" I used to regret doing so many things but now that I'm a tad bit wiser, it's always good to let go. For me writing makes me let go- thus the ramblings at 3 am. lol.

I shall take this risk. I will enrol myself in IMU for my course IF I do not get a scholarship. It's hard. I've tried before and I was disappointed 'cause I worked my ASS off for O'levels. A string of A's didn't make the cut. It's an asian thing I suppose. haha.

Right now, I did some things right. I made sure my extra-curriculum is impressive AND I tried ace-ing my subs. The latter was REALLY much tougher than the former. C'est la vie, non?

Je suis essaye...

For one that craves for magical connections...

2012-02-03T02:58:00.000+08:00

It's hard to describe but I shall try.

I'm a little buggered about a particular guy living now exactly 3 hours drive from where I live. Very accurately thinking about him that I hope so much to burn his brain.

*rereading* that's a bit harsh.

3 drinks and nothing is indeed a sign that something was never meant to come from it. It is mediocre yet I'm upset about it. Talks to others yet never to me. Has my number yet no correspondence. Has my facebook but no activity. His close friend says he does but all point to nope, he doesn't.

I'd like to go with he doesn't at this point after that para that I written. haha, yes, I agree with my logic reasoning. Why bother with a guy that hardly had the courage right?

Okay, there are indeed two possibilities:

1. That boy didn't feel the same. He was just really very nice.

2. No guts.

The first would mean the harsh truth that I was head over heels for no apparent reason. Yes. my ego is jolted slightly.

Well, obviously he didn't know what he just missed..teehhee..

A little something more...

2012-02-03T02:48:00.000+08:00

yea, I'm telling myself- a little something more.
Here I am at 2.40 am wondering why I'm awake at this hour. It was a long day today. I spent 3 days helping my aunt in the capital city. She bakes for a living so I went to help out. I found that baking is really fun. Please do try it sometime :) even if you're a guy, I think it's really macho to do so...teehhee..

It was an hour and half drive back and right after dinner, I had a drama meeting on the upcoming Easter Musical. It's a really big thing that is going to happen. I'm in the directing team and I'm having loads of fun...directing. A lot goes into planning and now I see how much work is done backstage for something to come alive.

Oh how I wish I had an opportunity to see Wicked or any other musical LIVE on stage. It's something on my to-do list in life. I shall have to wait for the opportune moment.

After all the hustle, I didn't quite settle in bed. I am probably the most impatient person I have ever known. I waited this one movie for at least 4 weeks. I finally got a chance to watch it. I did that tonight. That movie was Letter To Juliet. It's a really beautiful story with lovely and pretty people. Charlie was really handsome with his sepet eyes :P hahaha...it's a Chinese thing I'm afraid. the sepet eyes I mean...hehe...

I was thinking now..(thus the sudden jolt of electrifying energy)

...there is indeed something more. I know there is yet I'm settling for something ordinary or just my standards. I'm so afraid to go above that. It even prevents me from really opening up to God. I can't admit things and I'm stubborn to take in change yet I'm looking for change. Ironic.

Wherever I could look, I'd try to find it. Love. It's one thing to come from something broken but to dream of something whole is still a dream. It hasn't come to pass, not saying that it won't- it will, I'm certain. It's just me, I can't wait.

I see trees of green
where lovers sit and lie
I see in their eyes a gleam
the trust and hope that never dies.

I still hope where sometimes it's bleak
though impatient, I still wait for Thee.

thoughts six feet under

2012-01-28T13:09:00.001+08:00

it's a weird feeling how you mix and eat yee sang alone. yea, not all I imagined it to be ..at least it tastes good :)

Post STPMer coming through!

2011-12-14T06:56:00.002+08:00

YES, I'm finally done!!! Now I get to set my eyes on Unis. :P

BUT first!

I'm going to have so much fun and probably I'll start work- I do hope so, I need to save up for something colossal by the end of 2014...

any hoo, I'm going shopping today for prom and tomorrow is the BIG day!! :D
cherio :)

It's BIGGER than awesome!! :D

2011-12-12T18:48:00.001+08:00

In less than 15 hours, I will be FREEEEE!!! whee!!!!!!!!

BUT...

it also means study and revise completely in order to ace this last one.

AND...

there is still loads to cover...

oh gosh -.-"

It

2011-12-12T18:46:00.001+08:00

It's almost over!! :D

2011-12-09T17:51:00.001+08:00

My exams are almost over and the last paper will be on Tuesday afternoon.

For this last paper, it requires a lot and LOTS of reading. gosh..I think I spent the entire day reading today! Total up to 6 hours already and will continue the battle for 4 hours tonight- bringing total to 10 hours! I have to ace this paper :)

Tomorrow is D's wedding!!! this is the first time ever that I'm invited to a friend's wedding like I represent myself and all :P it's FUN :D I waited for this moment for 3 weeks- yea, I'm that excited :P

This is My God, Jehovah-Jireh and of peace! :D

2011-12-01T17:59:00.001+08:00

Hey y'all!! Today was the toughest day with Bio paper 2 and Chem paper 2 with just 4 hours break in between. I Thank God it's over! :D But that's not my testimony :)

Here it is:

After I sat Bio paper 2, I was kinda shaky 'cause I missed out a number of important points in essay questions. For a moment then I was slightly depressed.

In the course of 4 hours, I was revising for chemistry when I remembered about ODJ's devotional passage today I read in the morning- Psalms 23 and then I felt God telling me that I will do fine, just that I have to stop thinking about what happened and study.

Then 2 pm came...it was scary sitting through the Chem paper 2. When it was essays, I couldn't decide which to do coz it was all tough!!! :O

I ended up doing 5 out of 6 questions when I only had to do 4 :) I thank God cause He sustained me through that last half hour where ideas just kept flowing and at the back of my mind as I was writing, I was like- God is AWESOME!! I managed to finished that last essay and add more stuff to my subjective questions.

Now that's my GOD!! :D

Inorganic is so not my thing

2011-11-27T16:51:00.001+08:00

I'm panicking now! I can't get nuts about inorganic. I feel pretty hopeless right now...gosh!!

I need battle plan like right away!! or else I'm going to stress myself to death- literally.

It's funny how things changes...

2011-11-24T12:29:00.001+08:00

I don't know la. It's changing times, I suppose? The question is in regard of my breaks that involve the tele almost all breaks except the toilet breaks...though a tele can go in there :P

I'm not sure if it's a good thing or a bad. I study for 3 hours straight with at least 20 minutes total toilet breaks then I have a an hour half break. The longest I go for studies is 4 hours...longest break is 2 hours (which is usually dinner, tv and bath) Makes sense?

I guess it's vital I don't lose focus as I study so I can enjoy every free moment :D

Much better :)

2011-11-23T13:42:00.001+08:00

Yes, I'm feeling much better now... :)

...

2011-11-22T23:07:00.001+08:00

It's best to sleep now I suppose.

Degenerate: same word, a list of meaning :O

2011-11-22T13:20:00.001+08:00

I realised something: Denegrate has so many meanings that one can lose track

1. Having declined, as in function or nature, from a former or original state: a degenerate form of an ancient folk art.
2. Having fallen to an inferior or undesirable state, especially in mental or moral qualities.
3. Physics Relating to two or more quantum states that share the same quantum numbers: degenerate energy levels.
4. Physics Characterized by great density and consisting of atoms stripped of electrons: degenerate matter.
5. Medicine Characterized by degeneration, as of tissue, a cell, or an organ.
6. Biology Having lost one or more highly developed functions, characteristics, or structures through evolution: a degenerate life form.
7. Genetics Having more than one codon that may code for the same amino acid

Too engrossed xP

2011-11-22T13:02:00.001+08:00

I was reading Bio before lunch and I thought I'd continue on through lunch. I didn't realise that I was reading Mucor (bread fungus) reproductive system as I munched away lunch! xD

Talk about disgusting! Lolz! when I finally realised I laughed then continued :P

7 More to go...

2011-11-21T13:47:00.001+08:00

...and 20 days to go...

Today was Paper 2 of General Studies or more commonly known in BM as Pengajian Am. Thank God for fast flowing ideas for the essays. I'm not sure whether I hit what the question wants but I did my best to shoot straight. Thank God for time. I almost had not enough time 'cause the last question I was so SO unsure. I literally tried both halfway before I decided to finish the second option. I did the second first but then got into sticky situation so I pulled away then I tried the first option- MORE sticky than uhu superglue! D: I knew the second option more than the first so I did the second one. I had 5 minutes after to make sure everything else was in order. Thank the Lord ♥

The graph was a cylinder pie chart. Thank God my total for both 'angkubah' was equal! AMEN!!! I did the best I could for this paper. It was hard to pull through the whole thing...

God, our Father in heaven, Thank You Lord for strength and determination to push through. Thank you Lord for ideas and wisdom. I pray Lord that as I prepare for papers to come, God I pray for strength to fit temptations and the determination to push through. Lord, you know my weaknesses but Lord, in You I will be strong. ~amen

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!" Phil 4:13

Less than 24 and still counting

2011-11-20T13:10:00.001+08:00

Bananas! It's like less than a day to study. General Studies is so general that I don't know really what to read but to read all would be smart :P

My immune system is always nuts as the exams draw near. I'm saying this as my lips is one hotspot for allergic reactions D: It's super itchy right now and though not noticeable, it's actually bengkak :| I had worst during SPM so this is kinda mild I suppose. Nevertheless, it's ITCHY :S ah well..

I took a 15 min break last night to play World Of Goo (WoG) and I finished it! :D I was like finally!! :D

The funniest part of all was when the telescope was trying to see far off into the horizon...suddenly two big eyes appeared! It was a goo ball on the lens. Trying hard to shake it off, the goo ball seem to have so much fun. The telescope got irritated that it stoop down to the ground and scraped off the goo ball. It was super funny really!! go play it :D

it's 1 am

2011-11-20T01:19:00.001+08:00

It's so late already D:

I drank the energy drink at 8 plus thus the awakeness I feel right now. O.O wide-eye!

Nonetheless, the brain can only take this much and soon it is time to sleep :3 I like sleep...hopefully I can fall asleep also!

My childhood bestie, Shakilan messaged me through SMS all the way from Manchester, UK. talk about great friends! It's so sweet of him :) when I have two besties, Uhen and Shaki combined makes me smile :D reminiscing of the good ol' times :)

Okay I best turn in now....
Bon Nuit! :)

It's time to start!

2011-11-19T20:13:00.001+08:00

Less than 36 hours and I'm still here blogging and facebooking xD It's weird as I was thinking back during SPM and looking at now, I realised how slightly relaxed I am now compared to preparing for SPM.

I went onto FB just. It was nice to have messages from friends and cousins :) So much to look forward after this hurdle. But! I must not look too much to fun stuff after if not I lose the fun sitting for this exam! xP

Today, my room was a freaking hot oven! gosh! until I also 'gantuk! :3 it was awesome fiesta. I got up then got dressed to go to cell. It was only 4 of us but an awesome time we had. :D

Got to sit shotgun again :)

lolz...btw it's just a crush that will pass on by. I'm in the process of learning :)

Don't Stop, Never give up :D

2011-11-17T18:02:00.001+08:00

Don't stop, never give up,
Hold your head high
and reach the top.
Let the world see what you have got,
Bring it all back to you.

Dream of falling in love,♥
Anything you've been thinking of,

When the world seems to get too tough,

Bring it all back to you.

Bring it all back, S Club 7

Bring it all Back to you :)

2011-11-17T17:39:00.001+08:00

A long lost song by S Club 7! This really bring back memories. I always loved their show and their music is so good! so catchy and just how friendship should be. Like all group singers, they rise then fall. It's unavoidable.

Okay. so...

It's 3 days and one night till STPM starts! D:

I'm having mixed emotions really. I'm excited but at the same time unsure. One thing I hold on by is continuing committing everything to God. I will prepare my fields so that when the rain comes, I'll be ready to reap :) He's giving me peace.

Being human, I still doubt and stress out but at the end of the day, I acknowledge that God is in control of everything. I keep in mind about David, Isaiah and Abram. All are men of God. All had faith but yet sometimes they doubt. There's some things from them I still have to learn...

1. Obedience in all of God's command.

2. Humility

3. Complete trust

4. Letting go of earthly passion

It's interesting how we can learn so much from men from the bible.

Can't wait till it begins so it can be over fast xD

still along the way it going to bumpy with all the studying...it's now or never!

Ohyea,

I'm so proud of Malaysia in SEA games. They're doing awesome. ALSO the youth hockey team that beat Aussies last week, I think. haha. I wanted to blog about that but never got around to do it till now :P

I suddenly feel compelled to join the sukan negara and be one of their dietician ...lolz

well, God knows, I'll know in time :P

Study..Jangan tak study...

2011-11-14T19:43:00.001+08:00

Only 4 people came to class today-that's like 25 % of the class...not to mention the actual total is 16 :) I like my class cause it's small :D

did maths today. More like marking the trial papers I did. I'm doing okay in paper 2 but I need to push harder for paper 1. Pretty low marks- 55% =.= compared to 81% for P2 Petaling Perdana =.=" yea, that's how bad it is.

Puan Tan said "still got one week more. Gambateh" I told her I'll try :)

Tomorrow there'll only be 2 of us confirmed coming to class. I like studying in school...besides it's like the last week EVER to be sitting in the classroom. I wanna enjoy that feeling. For me, it's 7 great years in this school "SMK King George V"- an AWESOME pawsome school!! :) Go google to find out more.

It's got greenery, history and sweet memories ♥ gonna miss this school.

Disclaimer: I do not miss exams, neither the homework :P

Riding Shotgun

2011-11-14T00:00:00.000+08:00

Crushes.

hmm...

I was riding in his car today :) lol.

but right..

it's a tepuk sebelah tangan thing. As I get older, I realised that too many times these feelings are so temporal. I have not the opportunity to experience something more and knowing it's for keeps. I do want to so badly. It's probably cause I'm insecure now that's why the need is strong.

For anything in my life that works, it's cause God made it work. So you can say I'm waiting. I'm learning patience along the way. I've always been like the go-getter. Like twice in my life I told these two guys I liked them. The former had another and the latter well, had me for awhile. I learnt my lessons these both times.

Wait. then jump :P

Now having lunch :D

Faith

2011-11-13T11:56:00.001+08:00

It's letting go, knowing that He will sustain you..

I need a VENT

2011-11-12T20:22:00.001+08:00

1. I'm not good enough for anybody.

2. Toxicity stress and a dysfunctional house.

3. My phone line is irritating. Messages don't get through. What the crap is the line for?

4. Maths. oh man.

5. Lazy pig

6. People who don't reply messages until like what 12 hours...still counting btw. Might be that STuPid line who didn't deliver Messages!

7. SUDDEN anger issues. I never had this much anger in my ENTIRE life.

8. I'm a second hand smoker. I was always trying to stop you since I was 6.

9. Who am I kidding? I'm to be blamed for all of the above.

It's not about memorising...

2011-11-09T14:33:00.001+08:00

It's all about PERSEVERANCE!

Invitations...how?

2011-11-06T18:06:00.002+08:00

I'm trying to design simple invitation cards to invite teachers to our class year-end party. Yea it's like 2 weeks till STPM but hey, we want to celebrate the end of this journey one last time :D

BTW, here's what's coming up for dinner. :) can't wait!!

Super huge prawns from Sabah xD

A time for Miracles

2011-11-05T13:46:00.001+08:00

I don't think I can survive another attack for Pengajian Am. My PA is now in God's hands. I will do what I can to improve my current state and to clear the doubts that hinder me from doing well.

Grant Taylor: Lord Jesus, would you help me? I need you. Lord, I feel that there are giants of fear and failure staring down at me, waiting to crush me. And I don't know how to beat 'em, Lord. I'm tired of being afraid. Lord, if you want me to do something else, show me. But You're my God. You're on the throne. You can have my hopes and my dreams. Lord, give me something. Show me something.

Larry Childers: Did you do your best, son?
David Childers: I knew I was gonna miss it before it kicked it.
Larry Childers: Your actions will always follow your beliefs, David.
David Childers: Dad, I can't even kick it straight.
Larry Childers: And I can't walk. Should I just stay home and pout about it? If you accept defeat, David, then that's what you'll get.

Grant Taylor: ...But it means we got to give Him our best in every area. If we win, we praise Him. And if we loose, we praise Him. Either way, we honour Him with our actions and our attitudes. So I'm asking you: what are you living for? I've resolved to give God everything I've got. Then I'll leave the results up to Him. I want to know if you'll join me?~Quotes from Facing the Giants.

All we can do is prepare the fields for God's rain.

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.

He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:

he leadeth me beside the still waters.

He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the

paths of righteousness for his name's sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the

shadow of death; I will fear no evil: for thou

art with me; thy rod and thy staff they

comfort me.

Thou preparest a table before me in the

presence of mine enemies: thou anointest

my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all

the days of my life; and I will dwell in the

house of the Lord for ever.

psalm 23 - bible - psalm of david

Thank You Lord that my soul can rest in You.

Wading through to find PA answer schemes

2011-11-05T13:07:00.001+08:00

I am really dead meat if I don't pick up the notch for my PA paper which is like in 2 weeks. The other have gone tuition and I find a little intimidation when I think about the practice that they have.

I really have to buck up. Oh my, the stress! D:

Quotes from a classic love story- Notting Hill

2011-11-05T10:31:00.001+08:00

Quotes from Notting Hill (1999)
-Guaranteed to tickle your funny bone :)
Love those down to earth conversations.

2 Weeks till the beginning of a new dawn

2011-11-05T10:22:00.000+08:00

It's been a week of ups and downs. Can't imagine how I'm getting through but Thank the Lord I am :)

One thing pretty 'wow' this week was that I got distinction for a national Chemistry exam- that was quite awesome considering it was my first time ever. I was afraid to try that paper when I was in Form 5 but I'm glad I took a swing at it this year.

Then, I opted to go for a selection test for state level Olympiad Chemistry. So yea I got in but it was by God's grace really. I'm not sure the number if out of us 7 that will be attending the Chemistry workshop in Malaya University (UM) but one thing I know it's definitely after STPM. I just hope it doesn't clash with anything that I have coming on in January.

My downs are really revolving around the stress that causes many other sub-levels of downs =.='
First on the list has always been relationship issues. I really have a magnet of sensitivity and my actions tend to be misunderstood or vice versa- I misunderstand others. I like how William Thacker (Hugh Grant) in response to saying "whoopsie daisies" in Notting Hill (1999) > "Whoopsidaisies. It's a disease I've got. It's a clinical thing. I'm taking pills and having injections. It won't last long." I so totally can relate :)

Second is my obvious struggle with eating and weight issues. I partially think my insanity drives me to be a dietician. Lolz. I'm just kidding. erm, but really I know these issues are pretty common in girls. I've just realised that the diameters are now larger- not that I measured them but I'm just feeling it. So yea. Also there is also a possibility that period is coming. I have this strange ability that time of the month in water retention and that it makes me look bloated. I've noticed that over a period of few months. It's weird, I know.

Third, hmm...actually there is not a third. It's just the fact that right now I need to continue studying.
......

actually there is a third: competitiveness. I'm so kiasu wei. I realised that over the time I'm in Form 6. I never thought I had it in me. sigh. I think it's in the blood of a Chinese. Really, is there a way to overcome this sick beginning of a future obsession? That I pray it will not happen. I need God's guidance more than I know.

yes, it is now time to take these itchy fingers of the keyboard and and back into producing essays for BIO. :)

joy unspeakable. to tell you the truth, Jesus loves you and me. truly unimaginable, unconditional love. ♥

Insecurities

2011-10-27T19:39:00.003+08:00

This is one thing I need to take by the reins and say

"Hey it's doesn't matter what who thinks or how things are done, It's just ME and who I am as Christ sees me"

What I really Need to Do!

2011-10-27T19:36:00.002+08:00

It's less than four weeks now as STPM looms. hmm...I need to take it more seriously. Right now, I do take things seriously but not as serious as I should really take it.

Things to STOP doing:
1. Facebooking
2. having computer switched on
3. watching TV for more than an hour
4. doing nonsensical stuff like going out and all those stuff

Hard on myself? Trust me I need discipline x|

Breaking News: Typhoon Causes Massive Power Cuts

2011-10-27T00:44:00.002+08:00

GASTRICITY, 26 Oct.- The Information Superhighway (NERVES) has been affected by the recent typhoon that hit Gastricity. It is unknown whether the effects are permanent but Mayor Duodenum is hopeful for a quick recovery. There are no casualties reported as all trapped were rescued in time. The extent of the damage remains unknown as the authorities work at draining the excess juices from the city centre. The Main Power Supply (BRAINS) is reported to be slightly malfunctioned due to the violent storms that rocked its core.

More updates soon.

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I'm really tired that's why xP

nytes :)

Seeing doubles just different colour

2011-10-27T00:33:00.000+08:00

Victoria Justice (Boy who cried Werewolf) on the left while Taylor Swift (You Belong With Me vid)

Compare...

don't they look alike?

Careless Man's Careful Daughter

2011-10-27T00:06:00.000+08:00

Opposites that when put together brings another meaning. It's interesting that it can describe a very true situation.

Hope that careful means wiser and not till the best things are missed. Well, God guides :)

Headlines: Typhoon Strikes Stomach

2011-10-26T21:42:00.002+08:00

GASTRICITY, 26 Oct.- The land of gastric juices has been hit with strong violent winds that caused most major networks leading to the heart of the city to be temporarily closed. The authorities closed down the highways due to safety reasons as the juice canal is beginning to overflow. The storms has brought in massive showers of gastric juices that cannot be contained by the canals.

It is believed that some unfortunate citizens are still trapped in the city despite the 'effective' mass evacuation system. When asked to comment, Mayor Duodenum said that the pepsin police and trypsin brigade are doing all they can to rescue the trapped. He declined to comment on the failure of the multi-million dollar canals that were supposed to maintain levels of the juice.

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I'm actually having stomach discomfort and I thought it would be funny to write a 'news article' about it xP

Yea :)

2011-10-26T19:26:00.000+08:00

hmm...was thinking...

Feeding the mosquitoes -.-"

2011-10-26T19:13:00.002+08:00

Played World Of Goo awhile ago and got up to the second last chapter- Information Superhighway ^^ awesome green-ness there!! :D

While engrossed in the game, mosquitoes nicely feasted on my blood..you bloody mosquitoes!

One wish: I wanna obliterate mosquitoes...can't stand the itchiness...URGH!! x|

Waiting...

2011-10-26T18:21:00.001+08:00

I need to patient as God's Will unfolds...

It's through this that I learn to be wise

and not make past mistakes twice...

Lord, I pray...

the Product of Maths and Me D:

2011-10-25T17:38:00.003+08:00

Before: I'm so excited for maths (very sudden) :D

After two hours into the paper: felt like I was hanging on a thin thread...

after 3.5 hours of the same paper: Beh Tahan, go look answers

Post-Maths Paper syndrome: looking at the answers and I go- HAIYO!!

*smack brains* +_+

Lesson: Need to Persevere...keep moving forward!

It's much easier said than done...

A Motivational Video that I like...

2011-10-25T13:15:00.000+08:00

If hear something can't be done I'm gonna prove them wrong
Make everybody believe
If I had the chance I would change it all
That's what I'm ready to see

~If I Had It My Way- Emma Roberts

an awesome song :D

Afternoon sun through my window...

2011-10-25T13:06:00.000+08:00

It's now 1pm. I was lazy to have anything except the morning's left over kuihs and a glass of soy cereal. Besides this morning's kuih was delicious so I had to have the last one :D

In the 4 hours aprrox, I did the remainder of my maths paper 2 which I feel asleep doing yesterday x| Well, it WAS late when I started maths p2 (10.30pm). I roughly think I fell into deep sleep at 11.30pm. Room light was shiny brightly at 3am- that's when I realised maths had serenaded me to sleep.

So I finished the remainder and checked my answers- at least my probability is coming okay :) I'll need to buck up :D

This afternoon, I'll be concentrating on maths p1 and more PA. most likely I'll do Pa2 this time then I will do both my sciences tonight. I think it's a smart move to put Bio and Chem at night, the chances of me being serenaded to sleep would be reduced..hehehe..

Now- to do a sprint edit on Aspirer's White Christmas tickets

and then it's Maths P1 for me till 3pm ;)

Sunlight through my window...

2011-10-25T08:40:00.001+08:00

I'm enjoying a kuih whose name I don't know and it's pretty delicious :D

I'm gearing to study right now.. I watched 2 hours worth of TV yesterday and I don't plan to turn i on any time soon this week. I can't wait for Friday though- having The Dark side Of The Moon even at church :) we'll be talking about ghosts, ghouls and stuff. Since I'm the promo person in youth, I made this >>

The promo I made for the youth event (:

♥ me

2011-10-24T16:03:00.001+08:00

Manage to do quite a number of things but still lack a full bar of perseverance...

Gambateh Angie!!!
think Liz Murray :)

The part of this day...the reality check

2011-10-22T12:54:00.001+08:00

Reality check:
1. I have a month till STPM
2. I have to REALLY work on maths
3. Memories are fantasies. period.
4. Thank God there aren't any zombie eating brains x|

The 4th was a weird dream I once had

It's better to pen them down...

2011-10-20T18:21:00.000+08:00

Okay I have something that has been bothering me since the start of the week. Sigh. It's a buried crush resurfacing from all this rain. It was 7 years ago and it was meant to be buried 6 feet deep. However, recently it found it's way back up.

In relation to that, my mind is a battlefield. In times I have the strength of rationalization to overcome the silliness while other times I fall into the spiral of doom (where I tend to reduce in functionality). Lack of functionality means I feel butterflies and extreme cold hands.

I don't know. There was an event that lead up to this point. I regret knowing what I know. It's a question that I keep asking myself now. Was it me? Then I hit myself again- "No it was not you, perasan. It was the other person."

AH....I just read about my condition: Limerence. (go google)

Okay mine is probably the mild version cause some can really pass out :|

Anyway, I found out ways that I can curb it. It's probably the stress...

2011-10-19T04:42:00.002+08:00

my desktop :3

All that butter and cream...

2011-10-19T04:15:00.000+08:00

..and still no cake.

I'm now deviating a little awhile from researching for an essay. I slept early last night and biologically woke up 5 minutes before 3am :D so yea, I'm awake now :3 I few things were bothering me yesterday and I realised that i had the power to kill most.

I'm hoping to have a great day today :) we're also celebrating Ms Rose's birthday today :) yea, we're a day late x|

If only you knew...but some things are best left unsaid. It's wiser that way :)

Life on a Tightrope

2011-10-16T22:15:00.000+08:00

Exams are getting closer by the day. My brains are flooding in with facts and eyes constantly on trial questions from the other 9 states that I feel I'm pushing myself to a burnout.

I really need to get a grip and start making priorities. I believe that I lack organization in my life. No wonder
I'm super stressed on most days x|

These few days have got me thinking a few things:

1. I love being single

2. I so need to work on PA

3. Bio seems to be a great subject :P

Based on no.1, right now, I like the idea of not being bogged down. gosh right! haha...I'll get bitten one day but that day is not yet to come :)

Pengajian Am (PA)m one of the two subjects that I will be happy to leave behind. Maths is the other but that's besides the point. PA requires a vast common knowledge of current events and yada yada. Me being a lazy type not reading the stuff I'm supposed to read (guilty of reading fb posts), I tend to be naive and completely stupid sometimes in PA discussion class...indeed! So I'm now starting a regime. strict and disciplined one (i hope). I will take a topic a day and read about it, in addition, I will jot down what I need to know. Yes, I hope this works and perhaps improve my general knowledge.

I'm doing well in Bio and I'm lovin' it :)

Aytes, I need to get back to studying :) adios

Just about there..

2011-10-08T16:25:00.000+08:00

I've just finished working on some designing posters for an event (and I have another to do too!) At least one is done :D I didn't manage to do a lot of studying yet. I've just done some Bio, slept then did maths.

I came across the song- Defying Gravity from Wicked the musical. I find the song so wonderful that the prev post before this says how I feel as I listened to that song. It's really uplifting. I do really hope for a chance to watch that musical :)

Defying Gravity

2011-10-08T16:20:00.003+08:00

I wanna fly over the rainbows...
Kissing goodbyes to all that I was
Defying gravity to be more than I am
It's time to soar above my fears...
defying this wretched gravity.

Of stress and chocolates...

2011-10-06T15:49:00.000+08:00

Pahang Trials 2011 especially maths paper is tough! OMG...I was doing both the papers and I'm now so blur. It's like I have no clue what I am doing!

I realised that I knew little of the last 3 chapters of paper 1 and feel weaker in the papers now. urgh, Pahang trials! I'm lucky to be born in Negeri Sembilan! Now I'm stress...

Cik Rahime- which is one of my fav teachers gave me a packet of hazelnut chocolates for my achievements :) it was very sweet of her. I abuse the chocolates by eating 10 balls which to me is quite a lot and now I feel sick :| I blame myself for not having the self control in times of stress.

I have to get my ass moving on the court or do some exercise or else I'm going to keep on ~~hitting~~ hating myself. Yes, I do have a plan this Saturday. I do hope it works out for me to go...

I'll have to go through chapter on Functions and Graphs now :)
cherio...

Stereo Hearts

2011-10-06T05:59:00.001+08:00

My heart's a stereo...beats for you so listened close...

I feel a high affinity for Adam Levine's voice. His voice is rare and I've never heard the way anyone else sings like him. I love him in stereo hearts and also in Moves Like Jagger. I really don't agree with the lyrics but I just like it for his voice. :3

I had an inkling something was going to happen on Fb but it didn't- ah well... :P

Lovely dove dove..stereo hearts :3
hear my thoughts on every note...

Good Food For The Brain

2011-09-29T06:06:00.001+08:00

Whenever I see that line, I think raisins! Well, it's not known to me why raisins are able to boost mental power but it's a great energy booster. Just eat a handfuls of raisins and you're good to go- not to mention it's easy to pack 'em :)

I would also think about mental problems like depression, anxiety and mental fatigue when I'm talking of the brain. Most nuts are great as they provide a good balance of vitamins and minerals that stimulate nerve activity and strengthen muscles.

Here's a link where you can find out a few more foods for the brain:
10 foods to boost your brainpower

Other news:
1. I've just got another distinction for NSW English exam :) I'm in the top 8% of Upper Six this year which I find is awesome 'cause it's like my first time scoring 45 outta 60. so yea, it's awesome.

2. I've got two A- and an A in my trials. I have no clue what I got for maths but it may be quite impossible for an A-. I've calculated the possibilities: Not possible. I need to score at least 88% in my paper 2 which is erm also impossible. This is a sign to work harder.

All right, I'm prepping for school now so adios and see you soon!

P.S: There's a party tonight! :D

Regretful

2011-09-26T23:05:00.001+08:00

I'm regretting some things I did. I can't take it back neither would apologising to that person(s) would prove any better. I believe really that apologising is not the best route. Ignorance is.

I really need to learn control whether is the tongue or my actions, I do need a filter system up here. I've been repeating this lesson over and over again and now I'm tired out.

In my case, I need to learn patience and self-control. I don't need to be the go-getter but just the one who sits and wait. I'll do my thing when I sit and wait. Enjoy life at the back seat :)

Yea, I will try that.

I managed to do 74 questions on D-block elements- I like this chapter of inorganic all of a sudden x) I feel insecure for the rest of inorganic...but nothing like a consistent dig into the topics will definitely help in the long run.

I love organic chemistry btw <3

8 weeks: Am I up to it?

2011-09-26T18:34:00.000+08:00

I've got two subject results. I thank God that He help me through all this. He is the one that I owe all I have achieved.

I got 81 % for Bio! which is like my first A and Chem I scored 74%. I'm not happy where I am with Chemistry. It's not the mark I should be getting and I know I can do better.

Everything right now is so guilty. I took a 1 hour nap today and boy, the guilt is kicking in now. I have only 8 weeks left and I'm asking myself what am I doing about it from now? I really do hope that my study strategy will work.

I have still two more papers pending. It is most likely that I receive them both by Wednesday.

8weeks- Am I up for it?

It'

2011-09-26T18:26:00.001+08:00

Just 5 more minutes...

2011-09-26T06:36:00.001+08:00

I'm so sleepy this morning. It kinda feels like the first day of school after a very long break :| hmm...I wished my weekend would last :)

I'm not looking forward to take my exam results which I believe will be out this week- such efficient teachers! Yes, they will no doubt be out and I don't think I did too well either. hmmm. Here's why: I had a lot on my plate the weeks before and the weeks during. I didn't focus well sometimes as I study. I was blur as I studied. I wasted time restudying stuff cause I was blur in those areas.

Bottomline: I really need to work on my blur areas immediately!

School time now.
A Bientot!

Backpack Through Europe (financial draft)

2011-09-25T21:53:00.000+08:00

Consider this, I save:

each week: RM 10 (Aug '11 till Dec '15 = 228 days) = RM 2280 (15.2 %)

each month when I get a job: RM 400 (Feb '12 till June '12) =RM2000 (13.3%)

Okay add them together and I have RM 4280 (28.5%) of RM 15000

I also plan to work part-time during uni but that'll be something that I'll talk about when I cross that bridge. From the sum above, I'll be keeping them in the bank in fix deposit and let that grow with the interests so the actually amount is actually more than it really seems. I do hope it'll be more :)

It's a dream I'm wanting to realise...I really do want to see the world and experience this adventure. It scares me but it excites me more!!!

Yes, Yes I think I am

2011-09-25T21:21:00.001+08:00

"yea, I think I am desperate"
That's what's going through my head as I reread my previous posts.

hmm...

Perhaps I need a new hobby! hahaha...

I can't wait for next week when I'll be meeting up with a gang for badminton- it's going to be awesome CAUSE I'll be moving me ass around. xD I haven't been exercising much- nor do I have the motivation to move either. Dance yes but it's not enough.

Speaking of which, I'm thinking of taking up classes next year for dancing. I'm not sure what style though. I've scouted a few places already but they all offer only ballroom :| which is just sad since I'm looking for something like RnB kind of style. But then I was thinking about learning control and to shape the contours better. Now If I took ballroom- let's say Tango or something, I will have to learn to suck in fats and also learn to be sharp in the movements with the legs. I think it would be a good thing to learn control and perhaps a basic in dancing than to just go straight into who knows what I'll be getting into.

That's an idea :D

but it'll be in two months before I can get any of that running.

I have an AWESOME resolution which will be carried out by the end of 2015

- I will backpack in Europe at the age of 23. From where I'm coming from, I need to save lots and I'm talking RM15000. The flight tickets to spending money for the 3 weeks through Europe. I've roped in a few of my friends into this and they're quite hyped up :D I've started to save already and erm I have not much yet but I will get there cause I've got a plan. I'm saving at least RM 10 a week and when I get a job next year, I plan to keep RM400 aside and the rest will go for dance fees. Really I hope to get a job that pays more than RM800 which is quite possible now with my qualifications.

The plan is to get to London and meet a friend then from there we'll take the undersea train to France and commence our journey from there. It's a dream to see, taste, feel and hear Europe. To me, I really think it's an awesome time to go. By 2015, all my buds will be finishing uni. Right after we've got time if we sort our applications for Masters earlier (but that'll be a different sotory) Back to the backpack, it'll be awesome if we save now and then spend right before we begin working or something. But really, it'll only take a month of our long break of a few months so I think it's a no problem thing- oh I really do hope it would not pose any problem.

Tomorrow-

ah yes, school begins again. I've had a great weekend doing stuff, playing games and also watching loads of movies but now I need to get back on the bandwagon of studying. Yes the real deal will be coming in less than 2 months ( to be exact it'll be here in 56 days) x3 yikes...

ahh...well, c'est la vie, non?

Can't You See That?

2011-09-24T21:24:00.001+08:00

I have been fortunate to fall for somebody and actually got that courage. Later I realised it wasn't real though how much I thought it was- it never was close to the real deal.

I'm now in and out of the game. Here and there I fall but I gather my things up and walk on.

I wonder what is it that we are really searching for when we do that?

I wonder what I am searching? I don't think I'm that desperate but I catch myself thinking about it. I wanna feel the way the songs do. But really if that was the reason to get a bf, that's just sad.

Perhaps we need to find a guy best friend and work from there? haha, he has to be straight, of course!! LoL...A straight and very into me metrosexual! hahaha, I'm laughing my brains of writing this!!

One thing I need is someone who is not so perasantan (too overly sensitive) 'cause that would be double the trouble since I'm like that too.

Speaking on this topic, I was watching "How I Met Your Mother". There was something on opposite attracts. Something about olives- a guy who hates olives needs to find a girl who loves them and they will be blessed with happiness. x) Haha, dish me one! I love olives. I should put that on my dating profile.

On that series, I don't like the storyline too much. I was anticipating the meeting of Ted and his future within the first few episode in the first season. I got fed-up after that so I clicked into Wikipedia. I found out that they only meet in the sixth season. I was like WHAT?!

Thus this is my conclusion on "How I Met Your Mother"- funny, but too slow for me. I love the conversations but they are irritatingly slow in the plot and it gets boring sometimes in each episode. The same stuff happens and not to mention Berny and his obsession with getting girls. That was really the last straw. Also concluded that I don't like the series.

How I'm involved in the Tibet Earthquake?

2011-09-24T15:30:00.002+08:00

I'm not directly involved in it but still there is a relationship there.

You see, my mum planned this trip for a long time. So off she went on a Sunday a week before the quake. on Monday, I heard the news on radio about the quake. Naturally, I got worried. I checked it out and it was in Sikkim which is near the Indian border. Fortunately my mum was in Lhasa which is nearer to the China border. So she's safe.

But it made me think when something happens in the world, the affects people all around.
People passing you by. Just ordinary everyday strangers, yet under those layers something is going on in their lives that are bigger than them.

I felt like that cause I couldn't really tell everybody "yo, I think my mama's caught in an earthquake".
Anyway, really I didn't want to deal with their empathy. Plus it didn't turn out to be a big thing :|

Bottom line, the fact isolated events are not localised like before.

It affects even the unsuspecting.

That's life today.

Back in Tampin

2011-09-24T06:54:00.001+08:00

My aunt's leaving for Nottingham UK. She'll be doing her PhD there :)

The sad thing: they were watching something last night so I slept early. I was beat out tired- no idea why.

Anyways, the funny thing was I thought I can wake in the morning before she leaves. I think she woke up at about 4 plus? I guess I tidur mati!!! hahha...I think I missed them by half hour. I woke up at 6am. SO I didn't get to say bye :|

AND I got my sore throat AGAIN!

This is the 3rd time now in 4 weeks.

The Funny God :)

2011-09-18T19:57:00.000+08:00

God is humorous. I find so because in the way He shows me signs.

Here goes:
In these 4 weeks, I found out that the guys I crushed on in the course of 4 years (at different periods) have a girl in hind sight, just got one or in process of getting one. The latter and I were conversing on various topics and through that during lunch, the more I find that he wasn't it either.

All the more I'm happier cause obviously something better is comin'
ngahaha xD

Happy 30th Anniversary AGAPE :D

2011-09-18T16:09:00.001+08:00

It was an awesome day today.

Church had their 30th Anniversary today. It was an awesome celebration...I was one of the photographers and I was kinda scared cause it's a BIG event and I'm not that seasoned. I have no experience.

Anyway, it went fine. :)

WE had lunch at Ming Kok Restaurant later. It was a 2 hours thing! wow right! It was great food. The table I sat at was good company. We had weird conversations and perhaps it was the loudest table around x)

On a separate matter :
One thing I know now is that sometimes what we think is right on how we feel and all, sometimes it was and will never meant to be. It's the way that it should be as we wait for the right time, person and setting. who knows :)

Will be hitting the books in 15 :)
Maths P2 and Chem P2 next week.
pray for me :)

MY GOD- an AWESOME God :D

2011-09-11T21:12:00.001+08:00

GOD IS AWESOME :D

I love that He's working through me.
Thank You Jesus for the unconditional love for me.
All that I am is for You, Lord.
Use me for Your Kingdom's glory.
May I be an agent of change to my community and my country, Malaysia.

btw I absolutely &heart; Malaysia!!! xD

Good Food :D

2011-09-03T18:40:00.000+08:00

this year Raya is not complete without going to Kd and Ais' house!! Awesome food like always..though I could not enjoy it like before. Loads to study tonight. sigh. It's just a few days before the big T (for trials) begin! Gosh...I should think optimistically.

But one thing I know is that God will be there with me :D
AMEN to that wonderful thought!

A weekend closer to trials...

2011-09-01T23:24:00.000+08:00

Oh man, yes, Trials is getting closer and closer.

I have to admit compared to the way I work my butt of for O'levels, I'm slightly slacking off this time for Pre-U. Smart ass Ange...

I need to buck up, I keep saying it but I need to mean it. sigh

This is the first year my Raya week is packed- meaning that I had to go out quite often compared to the last two years. I had drama dinner on Sunday night, Aspirers meeting the afternoon before. Few days later, I met up with Shakilan (old school mate) then I had bible seminar (like for 7 hours) today and I have a short raya meet with close friends on Saturday...hmm...trials when ar?? LoL...dunno know x|

Like I said, I had the busiest Raya ever and no wonder I feel I'm slacking.
hmmm....I really hope I do well...

Old flame

2011-08-31T19:55:00.000+08:00

I have to admit you still have something on me...perhaps I am looking for a sense of security where I can't seem to find it now. I think this is just me and it obviously would not have any effect on you. I wish it would. hahaha, where would we go then? I think still nowhere prolly a much worse spiral downhill. I remember how everything didn't work for us. I keep that thought to be the reason why.

I'm laughing as I type this. *rolling my eyes*

I can't wait for the day for this feeling to die. I know one day I will :)

Cheers to a brighter future xD

Sickly

2011-08-30T17:37:00.001+08:00

It just a week for trials and I fallen sick :( my throat is aching, my eyes is watering and I'm feverish :'(

My Prayer Journey

2011-08-26T12:35:00.000+08:00

I'm not focused when I pray and I was searching for a guideline to learn to pray more effectively and I found this :)

Taken from http://www.allaboutprayer.org/daily-prayer.htm:

Jesus taught His followers to pray a simple daily prayer. You may know it by heart already as “The Lord’s Prayer,” but it will become more meaningful to you if you take time to think about what each phrase means. Then say it in your own words:

“Our Father who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name.” At the beginning of your prayer, acknowledge that God is your Father. For example, you might pray, "God, thank You for loving me and adopting me as Your child, though I did nothing to deserve Your love."
“Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven.” These phrases are all about your desire to have God's ideals acted out here on earth. Ask God to show you what He wants done today and to give you the energy or courage to do it. Ask Him to show you any ways in which you might be unaware you are doing something that is less than His ideal and to help you change.
“Give us this day our daily bread.” Ask God to provide for you physically today. Feel free to ask for other needs such as housing, clothing, a job, safety, etc. Get specific about what you need and thank Him for the ways He has provided in the past.
“And forgive us our trespasses even as we forgive those who trespass against us.” Ask God to forgive you for those things you know you have done wrong. You may want to pray for God's help in conquering a sin that keeps recurring in your life. Ask God for His forgiveness and thank Him. Then, think about whether there is anyone in your life who you have not forgiven. Take a moment to mentally forgive others. Ask God to intervene in those areas of your life.
“Lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil.” After praying for forgiveness, pray for protection from temptations and evil for self and family.
“For Thine is the kingdom and the power and the glory. Amen.” Acknowledge that God has the power to answer your prayers and perform what He has promised.

It's an uphill climb

2011-08-09T19:54:00.000+08:00

To curb stress-eating...you'll need to read how...

http://www.psychologytoday.com/articles/200311/stress-and-eating?page=2

http://stresseating.com/psychological-eating/#more-430

from http://stresseating.com/stress-eating-symptoms/

Stress Eating Symptoms

Here’s a list of the top 10 stress eating symptoms:

You don’t take time for stress relief because you have too much to do
You eat to reduce stress and pressure
You eat too fast and crave carbohydrates
The urge to eat comes on suddenly
You feel the urge to eat when you have important projects to finish and you are running behind schedule
You eat to cope with stress and reduce feelings of tension and pressure
Work stress causes an increase in stress eating
You eat in the state of “tense tiredness”
You use food for stress relief, instead of exercise or other stress reduction techniques, because it’s easier.
You’ve become used to coping with stress, so stress eating seems “normal”

Yes I suffer from all the above. Yes I have stress-eating disorder which is an atypical depression. Not that I have depression but it's probably the first level. Perhaps.

Here we go again

2011-08-03T19:04:00.001+08:00

I've been wanting to post something but sleep and study came in the way. sigh. Life a month before trials. Syllabus is not done for all subjects and with a month to go before trials, you can imagine the stress on both kids and teachers. We're now one crazy bunch of kids. My desk mate started to squeeking like a mouse and today, she made a drawing of a her 'mouse country' on her table with 5 states! I made her a mouse flag to complete the craziness. LoL!!

I'm already crazy for months- I began 'meowing' like a cat :P haha some people get fooled by it :D yea I sound like the real deal.

Maths is proving to be very VERY challenging. I'm trying all that I can.

Buck UP, Angie!!

2011-07-28T01:05:00.000+08:00

It calls for lots of studying and hard-work for the coming trials.

That's all I can say.

Nights

OMG, this guy is just tooo cute!!

2011-07-18T23:56:00.000+08:00

Joseph Vincent- If You Stay

Busy Busy

2011-07-18T23:52:00.001+08:00

Not as frequent as I intended to update. It's been a tough and trying few weeks. Loads have happened and are still happening. Trials are coming up in less than two months and no I'm not prepared. sigh.

Main focus:
I'll be leaving the Peninsular to a refugee camp and have fun with 180 kids there!! There's a team of us going there- all girls and all around 18 and 19, except Anne, whose much older.

I'm now still awake in hope that I can complete the video in less than 1 hour. God help me! The internet line is now pretty slow right now. So many people are nocturnal? go figure.

Not to mention I have an important Chemistry quiz which happens tomorrow morning. I have little hope of ace-ing this one cause it's pretty tough. Some crazy ass questions they ask us and it just makes you break your brains. Lord, be with me!

lovebug 3

2011-07-10T00:14:00.001+08:00

Okay I got bitten by another this time.
I like this guy but right, I'm not really noticed in that way
so yea..

haha, bugs!

Busy to the brim

2011-07-07T23:38:00.002+08:00

I'm so busy.

everything is coming in July and not to mention the need to study since Trials are in September.

Tired...

2011-07-04T20:28:00.000+08:00

Qualifying for finals- I don't think I got into the finals for disc throw. I think I only managed to average 9m which is quite pathetic. BUT it was my first try on this event and I kind of liked it :)

Some things should just change

2011-07-01T23:03:00.000+08:00

Seriously, the public transport to residential areas should be more often. I waited close to 4 hours for a 20 mins ride home! What is the logic in that??

First of all, I waited an hour at the bus stop but my bus did not stop, it kept moving on. This is due to the stupid electric post and phone booth 'strategically' placed that it obstructed the view of not only the bus driver but of those waiting in the bus stand. We can't sit when waiting for the bus cause our view of on-coming buses is blocked. That's why the first bus left without me- that was at 2.30pm

I got so fed-up. I went back into school and sat in the canteen where I finished my maths homework and took a nice nap. It was refreshing. Then I woke at 4.10pm. Someone once told me that the bus would come again around 4.25pm. I was reluctant at first but I decided that it was either I got stuck in school for another two hours or go home now. So I packed and left for the bus stand. I arrived at the stand 4.25pm- along the way I was praying that the bus would not pass.

Thankfully, the bus did come by 5 minutes later and I got home by 4.50pm. Btw, I finish school 12pm every Friday. So much time wasted. sigh.

The one thing that ticks me off, other than the blocked view, is the number of buses going to Kuala Pilah, Tampin and a few more. It felt like there was only one bus going around for a residential area like S'ban Jaya. In that 4 hours, I can say that 6 buses to Kuala Pilah passed me in which two passed me in 30 minutes gap of each other. Not to mention they are the same transport company. It was irritating.

Still working...

2011-07-01T04:13:00.001+08:00

I slept with the light on at 11pm
then woke once again at 3 am to continue
Still working now :)

deadline tomorrow...

Prep for sports day! :D

2011-06-30T22:35:00.000+08:00

I have an event!! I'm in the disc throwing event. It was my first ever try on the event and I nailed it- like I threw it pass the line which means I'm in :D

My final year and I'm in an event- wohooo!!

Drama today was awesome. I'm not sure how Shakespeare would have reacted to the way we tweaked his plays! I was in a very elegant dress and everybody said I was cute in the dress..teeheee..hahah :P

Alright, now I need to get Bio project done. Tomorrow is deadline. sigh

Ps: I think I have hormonal imbalance.

I feel like a Sponge

2011-06-29T22:33:00.000+08:00

I feel like a sponge.
I'm sucking everything in.
My anger, your anger, bro's anger.
My stress, my studies, my freaking future.
Now, it's impairing my body systems.

Rags

2011-06-29T22:27:00.000+08:00

I feel like a rag being tossed back and forth. Being strong for everybody and still have stress in school my life at this moment tastes like crap.I have no where or no one physical to vent to. I'm angry with everything. If I had a listening ear, it'll be selfish of me to take their happiness away.

not to mention, coupled with self -esteem issues that are taking a toll on my weight...

I just feel fat.

Mistaken

2011-06-25T23:40:00.000+08:00

I am obviously mistaken by intentions that were noble.
I pray I remember this mistake and not fall trap once more.

On a separate issue:

Gosh, the week is coming to an end not to mention June!
sigh, July is coming and trials are getting closer and closer.
Man this is tough! :(